What to say..

It's amazing to me how I can quit something so easily. Does this ever happen to you? You start a project, feeling very confident that you will be able to keep up wih the task and BOOM! you have failed. UGH. It happens to me a lot and it's frustrating.

I have every intention of keeping my word and being good about the promise to myself. But in reality, I let myself down a lot and get disappointed.

I have gone back to "crap" eating this week. I am still trying to not snack on bad stuff through out the day.. or make daily trips to the Walgreens (to save on money too) and I have been semi successful. But I definitely haven't been tracking everything I eat, like I planned. This whole loose 5 lbs thing is hard. And maybe it's because I have never "had" to diet so I dont really know what to do, or how to be committed. And it's not like I "have" to now, but more of a want to be healthier in my food choices. (But geez if a McD's coke isn't exactly what you need sometimes).

Like I have said a million times, I wish I had a live in chef that would make me all these delicious, 0 calorie meals, then I wouldnt have to worry about what's on the label.

And what's up with your body changing when you are nearing 30?!? I mean I am still over 2 years off, but things are definitely not the same as they were last year, and I have trained/training for two 1/2 marathons this year! I run 5 days a week dammit!! Shouldn't something be shrinking?!?

Sorry, it's a bitch-fest over here. I am just frustrated. But I am going to see my doc next week and going to ask about my BC. I think it's making me gain weight.. seriously.. i know that's probably not a true fact, but my body feels different, even in the last few months.. hopefully I can work this out.

Happy Wednesday. Hopefully I will have a happier post tomorrow (if anyone has even read this far)