Gym Time

I think I am joining a gym today. I realize that I talk about getting in shape all the time. But I really have slacked off since finishing the 13.1 miles back in April. WOW. I didnt realize how long ago that was. UGH. I really need to get my butt in gear. I only have a little over 3 months to get to looking HOT. I just really want to look my absolute best in my wedding dress. So, I am thinking I am going to join a gym. I really enjoy going to classes because I think they are a fun way to do exercise without having to think about it too much. I dunno. I guess it all depends on how much its going to cost me. My only other hesitation, is that the gym is so close to my house, and therefore, its going to be a much longer effort to get over there and get back. Meaning, I wont be at home as much in the evenings, and I hate that. G hates that. I dunno. I am torn. They do open at 5 am though! yeah right.

3 months and 30 days!

HOLY CRAP!
Just looked at my wedding countdown. I do not have much time. UGH. I need to get my ass in gear. I feel like I have a million things to do. I will be happy when the day is here and I have no more lists. :)

No work?!

Do you ever think you could get so much more done if you didnt have to work!? I do!! I am not here to complain about my job, but more the fact that I have a ton of other things to do, that i would love to get done in the mornings. Like working out, for instance. It would make my life a lot easier if I could go to the gym when I woke up in the morning. Now, I understand that this is a possibilty with my job, but who wants to be at the gym at 6 am?! I need all the sleep I can get. So if I could get up at like 9 and go, it would be much more time effecient. 'Cause I'll tell you what, by 5 o'clock I dont have much energy to get my butt in work out clothes. There are plenty of other things that I could do if I didnt have to go to work too. Another example, clean the house! Our house is a wreck right now. And again, by 5 pm, I am not in the cleaning mood. But it needs to be done. And I hate that the weekends turn into "clean the house day" instead of relax and enjoy from your long week. Charlie dog would love us a lot more if we didnt have to work, I can tell you that. So, I guess the question is, how do I not work and still be able to afford life?! Anyone!?

Busy Days

Lots has happened in the last week or so. My father went into the hospital last wednesday because he had a seizure. My mother took him from work to the ER where I witness, what is probably the scariest thing I have ever seen. Watching someone you love shake uncontrollably is a very hard thing to watch. The cause of the seizure we found out, was more swelling of the brain, and eventually growth of the tumor. Its another set back in my fathers recovery, and it seems we just cant get around them. It feels as though every chance of something going wrong or bad, it usually does. He is such a good man, and does not deserve any of it. We are waiting to find out the next steps. The good thing, if there is a good thing, is that there are options for treatment. As long as there is options, I am hopeful.

Its hard to describe the way I feel these days. Some days are great. Everything goes well. Some days are not. The smallest things can annoy me. I am not really sure who I am some days. I am taking out my frustrations on G and that isnt fair. I am trying to stay as positive as possible but my faith is wavering. I just want everything to be OK. Not only am I dealing with my fathers illness, but planning this wedding has got me stressed as well. I dont know who thinks this is a fun processes! Maybe its because I have too many other things on my mind.

Our days and weekends are filling up with things to do. I don't think G and I are going to have a break until after the wedding. Another 4 months!! I hope I survive. I am happy to say though, that last night, my mother, sister and I did some major wedding stuff. I have delegated things from my list to theirs and am feeling a little bit calmer about the whole situation. I cant wait for our wedding day. I hope it is the most unstressful day ever.. thats what all this planning is for, right!?

Just breathe.

I'm getting old.

Is anyone else feeling the effects of getting older? I know 26 isn't old, but my body is definitely changing and there are many new aches and pains in the last few years. I feel like every time something hurts or doesn't feel right then something is majorly wrong.
Currently I:
• feel dizzy when I read and just an all around dizziness; the doctor doesnt know what it is and doesn't seem concerned, but its starting to become annoying
• have serious stomach issues, sometimes causing severe pain in my upper abdomen. Latest test show nothing wrong
• might have one of my toenails fall off
• have developed my first wart, and it wont go away
• think my eye sight is getting worse
• have a pain in my left side under my arm pit
• think my spine is messed up near my neck, its deformed.
And generally I think I am in good health. But it seems as though I have a new ailment everyday and that I am becoming a hypochondriac! Do I live with these issues or do I have them checked out? I dont know.

wedding list update

My bridesmaid dresses finally came in! YAY! They are sooo cute. I am very happy with my decision. They are a little lighter than I thought they were going to be, but that is OK. But now I am going to have to decide on shoes, I was originally thinking silver to match the dress, but then I thought black would be better. Now, I dont know. I think its going to have to be a black strappy heel.. no pumps. :) But maybe I will just have them pick out their own (have i said this before?).
I cant wait for my dress to get it. Hopefully it will be soon. I ordered it in January, and they said 6 months, but dont they usually come in earlier?!

I did start working on my invites last night. Being a designer, I am finding that its really hard to create your own invites. I have too many ideas! But at least they are started. Along with the invites, I also I have to create a reception card, accommodations card, reply card, and directions card. Is that right?? I have no idea. And then I am going to design my programs, place cards, and menus (maybe). Are you supposed to have menu cards when you are doing a buffet style meal? Oh and table numbers. SOO much to do. This week, I have got to get some things checked off my list. Time is a tickin'.

Here is a list of other things that are STILL needing to be done:
1. Bridesmaid and Groomsmen gifts
2. Gift for G--- open to suggestions
3. G's wedding band
4. book honeymoon flights
5. confirm menu
6. meeting with church
7. sign contract from band
8. reserve rehearsal dinner location
9. sign up for foundations of marriage seminar
10. make sure all guys tux measurements are in
11. register for gifts!!
12. get guest list organized.

I know there is probably a TON more.. I just cant think.

I should probably blog

Sorry its been a week. Things were a little crazy with it being Derby week last week. Too much stuff to do, and never enough time. G and I had a pretty good weekend, starting around wednesday of last week. We went to the Chow Wagon that night and saw the "pride of kentucky" with all the rednecks that head out to eat friend twinkies and funnel cakes. Friday night we hung out with G's cousin's that were in from Hawaii and had a good meal at a great restaurant. We didnt want to be out too late knowing we had to get up and head to the track the next day. Derby Day was good. The rain held up and even though G and I didnt win any money, we still had a good time in the paddock. Derby is such a long day, that by sunday we didnt do anything but lay around, until we went for sushi!

But even after all this excitment, there is really no time for rest. My weekends seem to be filling up as the days go by. Not only my weekends, but I still have tons of wedding stuff to do. This weeks goal, get my invites DONE! I know I have been talking about this forever, but I just cant seem to get motivated. I did buy one part of the invites last week, which were these awesome graphite color trifold, envelope things. I am very excited about them. Now I just need to do the important parts.

But this coming weekend, I am running another race. Just a 5K, but I have not run since the mini marathon last saturday, so need to get my butt in gear this week so I dont die on saturday morning. It should be a fun race since we have so many people that are going to do it too. Even G is going to run!!!

I hope to keep up the blog this week, and post Derby pics as soon as I get them uploaded.